Oh airport I love thee

Got up at 4AM which sucked. Luckily somehow I'm not that tired. Nothing a grande peppermint mocha can't fix :) Off to home I go for 2weeks. Fruit and yogurt has become a new favorite of mine. I used to get them from McDonalds because it's only a dollar there and apparently at Starbucks they're only 90cents. I love having free wifi in the airports, its so useful. Like playing on the computer, blogging, watching youtube videos, playing simply hospital on facebook... you know all the important things in life haha Ok I'm bored of this and have run out of things to say! toodles!

Hello Charlotte, North Carolina

Well I'm on my long lay over... my plane actually got in early. Best part, the airport has free wifi! So I can just sit and play on the computer until it's time to board. My plane doesn't leave until 830 (i think) but boarding is at 8. I swear the guy next to me was narcoleptic... He ordered a gingerale and he was asleep before the lady even gave it to him. he kept doing it the whole flight. wake up for 2 seconds then his head would fall and he'd be out again. it was weird but quite amusing at the same time. I don't know what i would be doing if i didn't have internet at this airport. I've been facebooking and searching for airfare for KT to come home in december for christmas. it's so funny seeing people on the little airport golf carts that "assist" the people who need help walking... most of them are just fat. One thing I've noticed on this trip is there hasn't been one frickin' Starbucks in any of my terminals. I've had to walk literally from one end of the airport to the total other end of the stupid airport both times.... at Denver and at Dulles. Luckily I don't need Starbucks this late at night or else I would be on a mission to find it. I feel like it shouldn't be that heard to get a peppermint mocha... mmmm. Sadly I have to get up super early tomorrow which sucks... 740AM doc appointment blows. Although I might actually go work out afterwards just to get it out of the way or I may just go back to sleep when I get home. My appointment won't last more than 15minutes so who knows. Well I've run out of things to say, on to Denver i go!

Oh the stresses of starting a new job...

I got flown out to VA to attempt to learn more about the ins and outs of my new job as being a "virtual assistant" for Ryan's dad. I got LOTS of printouts i have to look over and figure out where the go in my nice little neatly organized binder. These time changes have killed me so I've just totally been exhausted. First I lose 2hrs then I gain 1hr... you think the gaining would have helped but it definitely hasn't helped anything with my time. To make matters worse, when I get home tomorrow probably around 11:30pm, I have a 7:40AM doctor appointment. on wednesday. That's not gonna be very fun and I probably will be half asleep driving to the appointment. This trip has been strictly business and just shadowing Bob everyday nice and early. I'm love visiting VA but I am definitely looking forward to going home to see my loves: Addie Mae & Ryan :) then 6 days later, I get to go to MI for 2weeks which I am DEFINITELY looking forward to NOT having a specific agenda and just relaxing. I need to start going to the gym and lose 20lbs. Not gonna be fun but I have to do it. I am excited to get my new tattoo when I go home then see my college friends (heather tyler andrew brian) and then of course seeing my best friend in the whole wide world kelly! Today I didn't do anything for work. I felt sick and like i was going to throw up so I spent the whole day (for the most part) in bed... Just wasn't feeling well AT ALL. I did get to see the twins/baby juliet/marie. It was fun... they haven't taken the halloween costumes off since halloween happened. Wonder what goes on in a 3yr old mind...in a 7month old mind, they like to just roll around and pose on the floor and it's quite cute! Well I'm out for now, hopefully you people who read this consider this a happier post than my last few I have done. This is the first time I'm actually trying to write a blog. I'll probably write a blog when I get to the airport tomorrow because I think i read there was free wifi or I just might pay the $5 or something since I'll be there 2hrs before.

Overcome fear and nothing will hold you back

Since I've last written things have been looking up. I'm SOOOO excited to be able to go home and just visit and see people. Not really to have an agenda is going to be amazing. I'll get to see the animals (even though I love my little Addeline), spend a holiday with my mom and see the girls. I'm even planning on spending a night or 2 on the west side of the state to see kelly, heather, tyler and andrew. I wish that time would pass so I can go home already. My moods haven't been so shifty. They put me on an antidepressant which I think has been helping. I didn't want to go on another med but I figured it would be cheaper than going to therapy as much as I would need it. I found out that I had 2 panic attacks so now I know what they feel like. I still get VERY anxious and frustrated with my new job. Luckily Ry has been  helping out as much as he can (he speaks his dads language). The antidepressant is also to take my panic/anxiety down because it's WAY too high on most of the days. I especially get anxious when I'm trying to figure out how to do my work that I'm suppose to do. I'm debating whether or not to get another job but apparently I'm entering the real estate business for Bob at one of the busiest times so he barely knows what's going on. Hopefully soon I'll understand what I'm doing. I've made a huge binder or templates and all the housing contracts he's sent me. I have to figure out the ins and outs of this Keller Williams site (he's maybe visited it once) so it's my job to figure out the site. I could call someone but I'd feel like a dumbass asking "yea, how do you work this site" when there are tutorial videos all over the site over everything. The only problem is me getting to watch them. I don't have a very large attention span unless its listening to music which actually gets me through all the rest of the computer stuff I get assigned to do... music solves everything damnit! On a different note, I'm getting a tattoo when I go home which I'm really excited about and I'm hoping Jordan can join me because it speaks of our journey of life. It's gonna hurt like a bitch because it's going on my ribs then I'll probably pass out. I should probably take  a couple of Valium when it goes on... maybe that will calm my nerves and NOT make me pass out. I also might make a move to get some closure in my life that's always bothered me. It's a 2 way street and I'm going to try to get something out of it. I don't even care if I get an apology or just a whatever, at least then I can close a chapter in my life forever and get closure. I haven't decided if I'm going to go for it or not, but I hope I can. The least I can do is try to do something.... whether it will work or not is a different story.