So it's been ages since i've actually updated this thing but here i go!
I quit bdubs.... made no money working there and got basically no hours, not to mention i needed to get the hell out of the restaurant industry. I just recently got a job working at hotel (here i go again) working at the front desk. my hours aren't really going to be too "normal" but then again, i'm not normal haha good thing is i'll have steady hours (40hr/week), benefits and steady pay :) not to mention badass hotel discounts. my disability still hasn't gone through.... all the times i called them they said they didn't need anything else then i get something MORE to fill out yesterday in the mail? fuck you disability. luckily i won't need it once i start working and get my benefits. i've been pretty up and down lately for some reason. my anxiety is through the roof (thanks brain, you suck). i would think the older i get, the less anxiety i would get but thats surely not the case. a couple years ago i didn't even know what anxiety was (even though i was feeling it a LOT) and now i feel like it never goes away. it's really messing with my sleep lately. i was sleeping alright for awhile and the past few nights i haven't been able to fall asleep or stay asleep. i train tonight for work from 7p-3a and i'm thinking of just going to the gym after work and trying to pull an all nighter.... but we'll see how that works out. i really need to get in shape. i have kept off 8-10lbs since march which is nice but i need to tone and just get into a routine so i can get in shape. i was also thinking of going on a gluten free diet to try it but not too sure if that will work. i don't cook nor do i ever have $$ to buy food..... and i basically live off noodles.
